It was also timely because Derry has just had the privilege of hosting American artist David Best, who has created Temples at the Burning Man festival in Nevada for over a decade.
His Temple in my hometown was a reflection of many things but ultimately It became somewhere local people remembered their lost family and friends, looked forward with hope and left behind all manner of emotions that they wanted to forget, or simply move past.
The Temple was then ceremoniously burnt last night as a way to cleanse those emotions left behind, a sort of clearing of the mind, it seemed to me anyway.
It felt like somewhere that I could connect with and as a result I left up one of my empty injection boxes, with a short message hoping for a life ahead that hopefully doesn't include injecting myself daily, and leaving behind some of the anger and resentment that, no matter how hard I try, still exists because of my diagnosis.
It felt so cathartic to be making a move to try and lose that sense of anger; anger at an illness that limits my life and in my hardest days, makes the road ahead seem impossible. The resentment comes at not fulfilling my career hopes and more importantly, for impacting on those around me, especially my girls.
I'm not naturally pessimistic, and I recognise that I have still managed to achieve many things despite MS, but it was also necessary to try to push that last vestige of negativity away.
Taking part in the Temple ethos and all it represented to me was a very good place to start.
I was also privileged to chat to David Best and briefly mention that part of MS was something I needed to 'burn' ... he was so genuinely lovely in his response and it's a moment I will cherish forever.
It was also a moment captured on camera by a photographer friend and I'm so delighted that those few minutes are there for me to reflect upon for years to come.
Photos courtesy of Lorcan Doherty Photography.
This post was a really lovely read Catherine. I also battle with feelings of anger and resentment sometimes, when I compare my life to the people around me who are the same age and wonder what could have been. I think this festival sounded like a great opportunity to try and let go of those feelings. It's always good to take stock and look at what we HAVE achieved despite being dealt this difficult hand in life.
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Thanks Alice, lovely to hear my words are making sense! Hope you're well xx
DeleteReally poignant Catherine, you are amazing even though you might not tell yourself that often enough! xx Awesome pictures too from Lorcan!
ReplyDeleteThank you Bernie, that means a lot xx
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